{"id":1157,"date":"2018-03-02T10:00:05","date_gmt":"2018-03-02T18:00:05","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/?p=1157"},"modified":"2018-03-05T23:53:28","modified_gmt":"2018-03-06T07:53:28","slug":"questions-ill-never-be-able-to-answer","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/2018\/03\/questions-ill-never-be-able-to-answer\/","title":{"rendered":"Questions I’ll Never Be Able to Answer"},"content":{"rendered":"
I went to India\u00a0full of expectations. A big part of me believed that I would return with an understanding of myself and of the world.\u00a0But being abroad was confusing.<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n
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I questioned human intention after attempting to meditate in an ashram\u2014fleeing the mountain temple more fearful\u00a0than when I arrived. The grey garbage flooding the streets deeply disturbed me. A sleezy tour guide lured our group to visit abused elephants, inducing overwhelming feelings of guilt. The world just seemed wrong.<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n
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Without a doubt, I fell in love with India, but I am also more confused about the world than ever. I am still full of questions that I will never answer. I make the wrong choices and say hurtful things. I am still challenged to find my calm, my pauses, my “no, you go first”‘s. I think we all are, really. And that\u2019s okay. We\u2019re learning.<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n

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I went to India\u00a0full of expectations. A big part of me believed that I would return with an understanding of myself and of the world.\u00a0But being abroad was confusing. I questioned human intention after attempting to meditate in an ashram\u2014fleeing the mountain temple more fearful\u00a0than when I arrived. The grey garbage flooding the streets deeply […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":71,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[112],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1157"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/71"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1157"}],"version-history":[{"count":7,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1157\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1224,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1157\/revisions\/1224"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1157"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1157"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1157"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}