{"id":1167,"date":"2018-03-02T11:00:49","date_gmt":"2018-03-02T19:00:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/?p=1167"},"modified":"2018-03-05T23:53:37","modified_gmt":"2018-03-06T07:53:37","slug":"im-a-barbie-girl-torn-between-two-worlds","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/2018\/03\/im-a-barbie-girl-torn-between-two-worlds\/","title":{"rendered":"\u266b \u266a I&#8217;m a Barbie Girl, Torn Between Two Worlds \u266b \u266a"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Everywhere.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Billboards, ads, commercials and stars on TV.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Here-there, next to the grocery aisle<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Beauty essentials. 100 spf. Bleach Here!<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Every soap, and every lotion, shampoo straightens too<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Rain or shine, umbrellas for one dollar<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">At the beach, long sleeves, scuba suit?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Here-there,<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\u201cI didn\u2019t recognize you!\u201d<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/Colorism-Collage-1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"size-large wp-image-1169 aligncenter\" src=\"http:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/Colorism-Collage-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"793\" height=\"576\" srcset=\"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/Colorism-Collage-1.jpg 793w, https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/Colorism-Collage-1-300x218.jpg 300w, https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/Colorism-Collage-1-768x558.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 793px) 100vw, 793px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">What does it mean to be Filipino American?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Do I try to speak the language?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Shall I say hello, shall I try to bargain?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Go ahead, I try. \u201cSigi Na\u201d I say,<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">I try my best but sometimes they look dismayed.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\u00a0I get more comfortable speaking, asking for directions.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">I must be getting better, I got this for much cheaper.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Connecting, conversing, I practice I sing,<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Is it me or am I camouflaging much better?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Walking, eating, I turn and see, shocked, someone is asking directions from me?<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"size-full wp-image-1168 aligncenter\" src=\"http:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/Collage-final-ish-draft.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"798\" height=\"569\" srcset=\"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/Collage-final-ish-draft.jpg 798w, https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/Collage-final-ish-draft-300x214.jpg 300w, https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/Collage-final-ish-draft-768x548.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 798px) 100vw, 798px\" \/><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">I am home. \u201chow was your trip?\u201d<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">I\u2019m so lucky, I can\u2019t complain.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">I want to pour my heart out,<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">I want to tell you about my triumphs and my doubt.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">The moment I speak, my words sound plain.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Please listen to me, there is so much to gain.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">There\u2019s an opportunity to share what I\u2019ve learned,<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Intercept the conversation\u2014what do you mean by American?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Birthday cards with white girls?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Should I say something? My lips curl.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">I\u2019m so lucky, I can\u2019t complain.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">My family, my blood\u2014yes, they love me so much<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">How are we so united, yet so out of touch?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Brown skin or yellow skin?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">You see, white is not the skin I\u2019m in.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">I am home. I can\u2019t complain.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Everywhere. Billboards, ads, commercials and stars on TV. Here-there, next to the grocery aisle Beauty essentials. 100 spf. Bleach Here! Every soap, and every lotion, shampoo straightens too Rain or shine, umbrellas for one dollar At the beach, long sleeves, scuba suit? Here-there, \u201cI didn\u2019t recognize you!\u201d &nbsp; What does it mean to be Filipino [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":73,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[112],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1167"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/73"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1167"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1167\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1204,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1167\/revisions\/1204"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1167"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1167"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1167"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}