{"id":1505,"date":"2019-03-05T03:00:58","date_gmt":"2019-03-05T11:00:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/?p=1505"},"modified":"2019-03-12T00:36:43","modified_gmt":"2019-03-12T07:36:43","slug":"what-if","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/2019\/03\/what-if\/","title":{"rendered":"What If?"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"page\" title=\"Page 1\">\n<div class=\"section\">\n<div class=\"layoutArea\">\n<div class=\"column\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><a href=\"http:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/What-If-1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"aligncenter wp-image-1621\" src=\"http:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/What-If-1-509x1024.jpg\" alt=\"A photo of a young woman looking in the mirror, wearing a pink dress\" width=\"348\" height=\"700\" srcset=\"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/What-If-1-509x1024.jpg 509w, https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/What-If-1-149x300.jpg 149w, https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/What-If-1-768x1545.jpg 768w, https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/What-If-1.jpg 855w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 348px) 100vw, 348px\" \/><\/a>Not far above itchy hug around chest<br \/>\nof just-purchased sparkly pink vintage dress<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">my brain<br \/>\nis trotting circles &#8217;round a teapot and cup<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em>What if&#8230;<\/em><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">twittering fingers tearing at scones as though starving,<br \/>\nflittering eyes too,<br \/>\nin creaky cafe\u0301 chair,<br \/>\nrocking,<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em>What if I stayed&#8230;<\/em><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">walking,<br \/>\nnot hearing chatter and applause,<br \/>\nnot seeing castle-tops and photo-ops,<br \/>\nnot feeling bodies packed on sidewalks,<br \/>\nsqueezing me through without looking,<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"page\" title=\"Page 2\">\n<div class=\"section\">\n<div class=\"layoutArea\">\n<div class=\"column\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em>What if I stayed here&#8230;<\/em><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Ecstasy.<br \/>\nEveryone, leave me alone!<br \/>\nScratch me on the way out the gate already.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em>&#8230; forever?<\/em><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><a href=\"http:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/What-If-2.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"aligncenter wp-image-1622 size-large\" src=\"http:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/What-If-2-1024x786.jpg\" alt=\"A photo of a landscape with a city in the distance\" width=\"1024\" height=\"786\" srcset=\"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/What-If-2-1024x786.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/What-If-2-300x230.jpg 300w, https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/What-If-2-768x590.jpg 768w, https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/What-If-2.jpg 1914w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Not far above itchy hug around chest of just-purchased sparkly pink vintage dress my brain is trotting circles &#8217;round a teapot and cup What if&#8230; twittering fingers tearing at scones as though starving, flittering eyes too, in creaky cafe\u0301 chair, rocking, What if I stayed&#8230; walking, not hearing chatter and applause, not seeing castle-tops and [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":679,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[115],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1505"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/679"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1505"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1505\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1624,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1505\/revisions\/1624"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1505"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1505"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/depts.washington.edu\/chidint\/journal\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1505"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}